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Diary Of Dispair A Diary of Despair A Chronicle of Heroin Abuse As Seen through the Eyes Of a Mother Jennifer Bernstein Drug Use and Abuse Professor Santucci 4/26/99 Dear Diary, I think back, and I smile at the little girl I used to have, all pigtails and lace. I can still hear her laughter echoing through the hallways of our home; see her swinging on the swing set in our backyard, her long curly blonde hair, full of pink ribbons, sailing behind her like a pool of melted gold. When the sun hit her face, she just glowed, her green eyes sparkling, her red cheeks, full, lush and alive. What happened to that little girl? Where the hell did I go wrong?!? Why am I sitting in a cold empty room, where she used to laugh and play, clinging to a teddy bear she tossed away years ago, wondering where she is tonight? OH GOD, just bring her home safe, Im begging you. Dear Diary, Today I found money, along with my credit card, missing from my purse (Beschner p.51). I also woke up missing a daughter. I can only imagine where she is now. I dont understand!! Its like shes like the girl in The Exorcist, she seems possessed, but by what, I dont know! Just last week we had ourselves a girls day out. We treated ourselves to makeovers, had lunch, bought new outfits, even caught a matinee movie!! We had a great day; she was my little girl again. But now, I find myself alone again, wondering, worrying, and praying (Gustafson p.45-46). If only I knew what was going on. I know adolescence is a time of turmoil and rebellion, but this all doesnt seem normal. She disappears for days, DAYS!! And when she finally comes home, its an all out battle. I threaten her, I scream at her, I plead with her, only to have the door slammed in my face! Im nearly at my wits end. I wish her father was still here, I need help. I cant go through this alone. Im scared. Dear Diary, I dont know who she is anymore. I fear the little girl I once knew is gone forever now, never to be seen again. This person is unrecognizable to me. She went from being an honor-roll student to dropping out of high school. Shes emaciated, her clothes (if you want to call them that, they look like rags to me) hang on her; she looks like she hasnt bathed in weeks. Her face, once full of joy and hope, is emotionless now. When I do see her, she only has angry words for me, before stealing some of my money and storming out of the house (Gustafson p.48-49). I want to reach out to her, but I just dont know how. I fear the worst. I dont want to admit what my heart already knows. Dear Diary, My worst fears have finally been confirmed. I found a needle in her drawer. I confronted her. My hands are shaking as I write this. GOD how could this happen to my little girl!?!?! WHY It didnt go well. She admitted it. She looked straight into my eyes, with a cold harsh stare I barely recognized (but somewhere, deep down in that gaze, I saw her, the child I once knew) and said Yeah, Im using. Theres nothing you can do about it, and then walked away (Gustafson, p57-56). I stood frozen. I felt my soul ripped from my body. I feel as though Ive lost her forever. Dear Diary, Its been about a month since I saw her last, the day I found the needle. I have no idea where she is. If I knew who her friends are, Id call them, but shes been so elusive and secretive (Gustafson, p52) during the past year, I have no idea who they may be. Who ever they are, they probably got her into all of this. How could I have let this get so out of control? Looking back, I should have seen this coming; I should have recognized the signs (Gustafson p.86). I could have stopped this. NO! Stop it!! I cant do this to myself. The past is the past and yes, mistakes were made, but the damage

Morgan Freeman essays

Morgan Freeman essays Morgan Freeman is a wild card actor. He usually plays the roll of the guy that thinks things out more than was thought possible by the other characters. Born in 1937 Morgan Freeman had a difficult childhood moving from place to place and was encouraged to act to stay out of trouble. Freeman has done quite a few movies many of which have been big hits which leaves great impressions on the viewers and bring them back to see more. His character always thinks about things in different ways then everyone else and he leaves the viewers trying to do the same. The movies he does usually have a plot line that jumps around keeping the viewer on the edge of their seat. Morgan Freeman has given the movie industry an unpredictable actor that can change the movie numerous times and keep the viewer glued to the screen the whole time. Morgan Freeman was also nominated for 3 Academy Awards for The Shawshank Redemption, Street Smarts and Driving Miss Daisy. Morgan Freeman was born June1, 1937, in Memphis, Tennessee, to Morgan and Mayme Freeman. As a child Morgan moved a lot. He lived with his grandmother for 4 years until she died he moved back with his parents in Chicago and after only six months his mother left her husband and took Morgan back to Greenwood, Mississippi, but didnt stay for long. They continued to move about threw out his childhood. He wont speak much about it, but Morgan was in a gang for a short time, but got out by having many school activities to tend to. To stay out of mischief Morgan was encouraged to act in school plays. One time he pulled a chair out from under a girl ha liked in class, but instead of getting in trouble, his teacher offered him a part in a school play, which he won state championship prize for best actor. He didnt take acting serious at this time and after high school he joined the Air Force in 1955. Morgans first big acting role was in the childre...